Tell me that you care I'll be there in a heartbeat

My name is Holly, from Wales, 17 :D. I love: SIMPLEPLAN, oreos, GEOGRAPHY, twilight, READING, gossipgirl, ART, animals, F.R.I.E.N.D.S, harrypotter, LINKINPARK, rugby, ROBPATTINSON, tea, LONGWALKS, travelling, ALLTIMELOW, horrorfilms, PHOTOGRAPHY, christmas, SNOW, literature, BEINGPATRIOTIC, vampirediaries, FAMILY, tumblr, TOMDALEY, mybed, GEORGENORTH, mykittens, SUMMER, fashion, SPIDERMAN, edwestwick, MEETINGNEWPEOPLE, peace, QUOTES + friendship.



ABOUT ME

Hello people of tumblr!

My name is Holly, it’s a Christmas name, as I was born near Christmas :D, 18 soon, yay!

I live in Cardiff, Wales. Please tell me you know where Wales is, and that you know it’s a Country, if you don’t know, go away! (Sorry, but it ANNOYS me like hell)

I’m just going to ramble on about myself in case someone is so bored that they actually want to read this, and learn about me. Here goes…

I’m shy and awkward if you’ve just met me, or if I don’t know you well. It takes me a veeeeery long time to trust someone, and in order for me to relax around you, you need to be nice to me! Although I must admit, I’m not as shy as I used to be, you’ll find that I do speak lot’s!

However, if you’ve known me for a while and have gained my trust, you will know that I don’t keep my gob shut and I’m extremely open :L. People have called me fake for being different around my friends compared to other people, I would just like to say, being shy doesn’t make you fake, and I’m the same around my entire family as I am around my friends. Being called fake is a touchy thing for me, as I spend so much time making sure I’m not fake.

Once you have gained my trust I’m unfailingly loyal. I’ll be there no matter what and do anything for you! If a friend is in trouble I’m no longer shy, I’d defend them no matter what :L. 

I have gotten into sooooo many arguments in my lifetime :(, many times it hasn’t been my fault, but there were times when I know it was my fault. I’ve hurt people and done the wrong thing no end of times. But the mistakes I’ve made has turned me into a better person. I love learning from mistakes and knowing I’ve done wrong so I don’t make the same mistake again. I’ve lost people due to my actions and I’ll hold my hands up for that, but at the end of the day I would never hurt someone unless I had a reason to. I’m not a bully, I could never purposely pick on someone, I’ve had it done to me, it’s not nice. 

I have often hurt the people I love most, my mum, my dad and my closest friends, but it’s always things that I don’t truly mean.

Okaaaay, you’re probably thinking I’m a horrible person right now, I swear being the best person I can be is something that is on my mind a lot. Everyone, and I mean everyone is going to mix with people that they don’t agree with, and make friends with the wrong people, which is what I’ve done, and that’s why I’ve had so many arguments. But now, finally, I know who my true friends are, and there have been no arguments for nearly a year now! It’s great!

A lot of people love to revel in popularity, and I would like to say being popular has always been something I’m not interested in. What’s the point? It’s for attention seekers that want EVERYONE to love them. And everywhere you go, there’s always going to be someone that doesn’t like you. People shouldn’t try so hard. I prefer to stick with people I trust, being popular is a doorway to backstabbers and rumours - not worth it!

Right now, I sound like a loner… But I’ll now explain how I am the COMPLETE opposite. I hate being alone. Most teenagers prefer to spend hours and hours cooped up in their room… I don’t. I’m hardly ever in my room. Being alone for too long makes me anxious. I like to spend evenings with my parents and brother, and my adorable kittens.

My family - I have my parents, 3 brothers, 2 nans, 1 grampy, 2 aunties, 3 uncles, 4 cousins (that I know of) and a sister-in-law.

Let’s start with the parents, they’re great parents and I rarely have serious arguments with them. What’s great about them is, they never push me about school, they let me get on with it. Never ask me about homework nor nothing :D. My Dad is weird, he watches telly on the floor and comes out with weird words, and we always playfight :L. And I would be nowhere without my mum who is my inspiration (but shh, she doesn’t know that!), she does everything, and I mean everything. I’d be completely lost without her. 

My brothers! Yeep, I have 3 :(, and they are all older :(. But I wouldn’t change them for the world :D. The oldest is married to a wonderful sis-in-law who I love to bits! The second oldest is now disabled due to a stroke which happened last year. Last year was the worst year of my life, and I hate to even think of it. I nearly lost my brother, and now he cannot speak or move his right arm, but I love him more now than ever before. And my other brother was the one who I used to spend allllll my time with. We shared a room and everything, and boy did he annoy the shit out of me. He came out gay about 3 years ago, which has only brought us closer, and he now has a wonderful boyfriend!

Talking about the rest of my family would be going into too much detail, so I’ll leave them out, but I love them all!

My best friends! - I have 4, who I consider my BEST friends. Lets start with the one that I’ve known my entire life - Becky Davies. I know her inside out, more than she knows herself I think :P. We grew up together, we used to be inseparable. Literally. And in ways, we still are! She’s always there for me, and she’s more like the sister I never had. And she lives across the road, which is handy! No matter where the hell our lives lead, I know for a fact I’m never going to lose her.

Bethan Warrington, my other best friend. Who I seriously cannot live without. She means more to me than she knows and who is also practically my family. I trust her with my life, and never, ever fails to be there for me. She has silly confidence issues, which is downright silly, Beth if you’re reading this, you’re beautiful and I’m jealous.

Chloe Roberts, another best friend! I’m lucky :D. This girl is the most loyal girl I’ve ever met, and is also the craziest. I love how she doesn’t give a toss what people think. She acts like a nutter wherever she goes! I have the ODDEST conversations with this girl, and I’d be lost without her too! 

Beki Gardiner, who I’ve recently become much more closer to over the last few months. This girl is trustworthy and well organized! I mean, you sort out everything! I have loads in common with her, and I’m so unbelievably glad we’ve become much closer, because she’s someone I don’t want to lose.

Those 4 girls, if you hurt them you hurt me. (sounds cheesy, but it’s downright true!)

Now I’ll go on to talk about my pets. Throughout my life, I never had pets, I could never see myself having pets. My oldest brother was allergic, and my dad just didn’t want them! I’d always wanted one, I used to throw massive tantrums because we weren’t getting pets. But last year, I got my first ever pet! My adorable hamster, who I called Ron! It’s pretty obvious why I called him Ron.. I love Harry Potter, and he’s ginger. Then, only a few months ago, due to the fact that my brother and his boyfriend got 2 kittens, my mum became interested in getting kittens, and before long, we got 2 unbelievably cuuuuute kittens. A boy and a girl, called Cassie and Jasper. They’re getting bigger now though, but boy I love my 3 pets to bits :P.

I have more things about myself that I didn’t say, more random facts and info about me. First of all, I’ll admit, I’m self-conscious. Not just with how I look, but with everything I do. I don’t give myself much credit, and I have never really been the best at something. In fact, I’m so used to not being that good at anything that I cannot take a compliment.

I also tend to hold grudges. If someone was ever really horrible to me I never, ever forget it. If someone insulted me, the words will stay with me forever. And I have often been right about people maaany times. This one girl was a bitch to me, and I was the only one that could see how horrible she really was, then it wasn’t long till everyone else finally saw it. Same sort of story has happened a few times. I’m not saying I’m psychic, just observant.

I’m reeeeaaallyyy cocky. Just don’t play a game with me, I get competitive as hell. Especially if I’m playing with my brother :L. My cockiness drives my friends maaad.

I’m opinionated and I HATE to be proved wrong. If I’m wrong about something I get so worked up :L, and I will not let myself be wrong haha. And I stand by my own opinions of what I think of something.

I don’t copy what the whole world likes, I like what I like. I don’t pretend to like things to fit in. I often like things that my friends don’t, but that doesn’t stop me from liking it :).

You’ve read loooot’s about me now, and I bet you’re wondering about my sexuality and relationships and things like that. Weeeeell… I’m straight, but I have no problem whatsoever with gays or lesbians, I can’t stand people that are prejudiced about them. They’re people, and love is a human right. Anyway, boys are my type. Pretty much any type of boy, I don’t have a specific type like many girls do. But I have this thing with age, they HAVE to be older than me and taller. See, I’m not that picky! Personality matters the most. Let me just say I would fall head over heels for a tall guy, 2 years older than me. Kind and funny, and who gets my personality! If I’m gunna talk about “types”, basically what physically attracts me is darker skin (half-cast), brown eyes and black hair. But as I said, things like that aren’t what matters most! I have only ever had 1 official boyfriend, and we only dated for 2 months. Not a lot of people would even know this, as I don’t go bragging about it and writing all over facebook about how much I love my new bf. I’ve had a few drunken times with other boys. And fun and games on holiday :L, haha it sounds worse than it is. I’m not a slut. Hell, I’m still a virgin. And I’d rather lose it at a more respectful age, like 18 or 19. But at this current time I’m happy staying single :).

I do have a few fears, I used to tell people I’m not scared of ANYTHING, but the truth is, I’m just not scared of normal things like heights ghosts and the dark etc. In fact I love spooky things and horror films, I’m quite gruesome :P. Anyway, I’m more scared of things that are more worth being scared of. As I said, I’m scared of being alone for too long, I start to panic and feel really left out. It’s weird. I’m scared of being hurt or losing people. I don’t want anything else traumatic to happen in my life, because I’m not sure I am strong enough to handle it. I will also admit to being scared of spiders (but who isn’t?), and…. caterpillars. Don’t ask why!

What I HATE - I hate girls that act different around their boyfriends. I hate seeing seeing my friends in pain. I hate seeing my mum or dad cry. I hate bullies. I hate people that are 2 faced. I hate religion (but I accept it!). I hate people that are prejudiced. I hate war. I hate poverty. I hate people that are pure nasty, unless they’ve had a hard upbringing.

It’s weird how a programme can make me think, but Gossip girl makes me think people grow up how they were brought up. I understand why some people are the way they are. And I accept people for being who they are. But there is a difference between a good person that does bad things, and a pure evil person who does bad things. 

Things I LOVE - I’ve said this a lot, but I love, love, love my family and friends. Anyway, I love people that go through so much and still have the muscles to smile. I love people that change in order to be a better person. I love gay boys. I love animals. I love travelling (I’m seriously determined to travel the world). I love OREOS. 

I will write more laterrrrrrr.